I think the real thing that I always really wanted was not to make great work, which you know is also something I wanted, but it was really to be an artist, to be living in that space of where great work comes from and is the expression of. And just, you know in washing my dishes, to wash them beautifully, to wash them artistically, to wash them with that energy of bliss and beauty which I normally don’t do. So really the problem is that I am always rushing to try to achieve glory in the eyes of others instead of being in the glory of being, and so it really is just about me, it is not about what anyone else thinks, but I have always made that mistake.